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Got Problems

Sirens wail a final warning
One more reminder of change
Revert course to stabilize
To avoid life’s progression
To stay in this coma of comfort
No
I have avoided long enough
Time to take the next checkpoint
To see what is on the other side

That was months ago
Horrible falls
Bloodied hands
Eyes sulked
Back hunched
These times have been burdensome
Skies flaring flames with every breath
Turmoil quantified by oceans of cries
This constant improvisation
Changing tempos void of logic
Dissonance hobbling along halls of thought
An endless feedback
Lengthened decays
Shimmered reflections
Everything mixing like a drink
Simple ingredients taken for granted

To find the soul of others
Find common denominators
Safe and easy conversations
Placating minds to servitude

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Stream

Crying a lot more
Randomly driving home
Slinking away from people

Maybe it’s constantly being alone
Echoes being my welcome
A pillow to hold onto through night

Maybe it’s all the regrets
Lives that I pretended
Loves that I rejected

Maybe it’s the multiverse
Showing me how it could have been
Infinite possibilities now impossible to me

Maybe it’s traversing the wrong road
Calling in blockades down the path
Setting up traps to misdirect

Maybe it’s just my destiny
To show how horrible things can end up
How the man in public hides secret pain

Maybe I don’t matter
Begging for ears to listen
Bellowing madness to the dark
Pleases to whys to denials
Chasing the paces to disgraces
Misstepping placating promises
Coronating the confection through…
…rhymes?
What am I saying?
Attempting beauty from disaster
Mercy to the failed angels
Those who looked but couldn’t help
Maddening cruise off the cliff

I wished for a halo
A peace to rub my shoulders
Soft whispers beaming love
Sedate the anxiety before awaking

I received damnation
A riot to punch me in the face
Harsh screams crusading through blood
Adrenaline panic after stumbling

So many streams leading to one place
Why is this journey so difficult?

For Fuck’s Sake

Another shuttered misstep
Blood coursing through damp hair
Eyes ablaze with the passion of injury
Taking breaths of gravel through pants
Moving over the pain towards exaggeration
Lash forward with a growl
Lighting striking an unexplored region
Falling back towards a hole of decay
Landing against mechanical metal
Pupils hazed by a whirlwind of direction
Seized by the opening earth below
A distorted voice booming through the fog
Listing the fired violations to dead ears
Right before the lights turned out
Realizing my modulated virtue was fucked

Will Not End

The world will not end in my lifetime
That may be my only consolation prize
Despite the seeds we plant for the future
Continued declaration against our mother
Ever warming to a point break
Silence before the gasping decision
Though not in my lifetime
I will see neon waiting for consumption
Feel me and fuck me
See it and go there
Drowning in a haze
Tactical mentions in others’ minds
More reasons to smile after the end
Consideration wasn’t placed properly
The reverberations of our actions continue
Bouncing off the walls of time
An endless ripple effect
All is because of before
Never is always never
The past determines our movements
Seldom will there be sudden switches in viewpoint
Even less a lasting change in behavior
So after years of riding the current
Are we damned to ashes?
Has the past forever directed our turns?
Do we ever have a decision?

The Need to Move On

How long can the punishment last?
The slow dive of a knife
Burrowing under skin
Thrust and twist
Looking into eyes you trust
The only set that could break you
Those irises that left long ago
You lay there on the floor
Still reeling in a pool of dried blood
Vacant eyes hint towards deep thought
A quelling resurgence to take over
Maybe it is time to stand
To take the knife out of your side
Deal with the wound
Take a look around
See how the world moved on without you
See how you were of no consequence
How your former self was pitiful
Alone and sedentary
A parasite in the millennial generation

Though, hope doesn’t need to be lost
You could walk taller and correct your path
Get on the right road
Clear your vision
Let the wound scab over
Reject any further explorations of the pit
Deny the dark night into your soul
Let the light focus it’s shine on you
Next to the ocean
Stretched muscles and a full heart
Isn’t that the mission?

Ecstasy/Fallout VII

the dust settled during the epilogue
no lives were lost
no tears couldn’t be dried up

sure, everything ended
the rage of a fire cleanses the forest
leaving seeds for new adventures

was it worth the fallout?
that viewpoint is TBD at last call
when all can be looked at empirically

but if the question needed answering now
it should be said if one thing were changed
one path left for other to travel
one drink kept in the keg
all would be different
now would not exist
fingers would not be telling you this
more journeys would not be possible

so it can’t be that bad.