Tag Archives: love

Browsing

Too many profiles to sequence
A picture to browse
A person to meet
After countless expeditions
“Meet me here at this time”
Small to medium to large talk
Maybe a kiss at the car
Maybe a few more encounters
Each one revealing more reasons
“Just jump and run the fuck away”
Abandon any prospects
Let love slip while dreaming of sewers
Maybe all chips are still to be accounted
Maybe regrets have been piled up
Maybe it was all meant to be
All your “fuck this shit” side chains
Deviating from any sort of road
Becoming legally insane
Knowing the streets and the other realms
Maybe it all leads to a resolution of a dream
A love to live for, a family to die for
No longer a nomad who is loosing it
A somebody from somewhere
With a future to live for
That is why the browsing continues
To reach for the peace all need

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Candid Conference

This has been a long time coming
We thought you could repair the destruction
Rise up like the prophecy foretold
You were going to conquer it all and win
The foundation was supposed to stand
Kingdoms were thought to prosper
Kiss the princess and make her a queen
Buy a ring and raise replicas of both
An honest life to live
A nobility you said you always wanted
Though you fucked it up
Your fucking vacuous infatuations
Preferring the dark night over the bright day
Pixels on a screen appeal more to you
Using fire to put out fires
All of your perspectives
Are
Completely
Fucked
You took so many wrong turns no road exists
Wheels popped, rations exhausted
Run away from gunfire
Got lost in the woods
Living amongst the lost
Now simply a beast
Negating the positives
Preferring misguided adventures
Sitting alone in dry weather
Panicking through packed crowds
Loosing balance when bracing stability
So you ran away
Forgot all possibilities
Hypnotized yourself through man’s creations
Ignoring the beauty in God’s creations
Stating your preferred exit sign
Ticket for one, one way.

How Far Will You Get Alone?

How many times have you traveled here?
The same conversations repeating
Body language coded throughout the night
Maybe one or two more times
Then complete disappearance
No longer interested
So many fucking fish
Another crackle in the fire
An arrow shot in the heart
Never finding the counter balance
The things that fills the gaps in our souls
Empty skin can only withstand so much life

Substance is needed more than ever
Though there is little I could change
My attempts fall all across the spectrum
From egregious to simplistic
Traveling farther and farther from home
Dancing under strange rains
Crying while the sun beams across the world
Forgetting how strange this all is
Skating along the edge of a blade
Tempting righteousness without just cause

Surrounded by blood thirsty demons
Calculating every move on the board
Knowing they can only steal single souls
Ones without family
Ones without love
So as the rounds wear you down
Remember the fight is only beginning
Soon the real war will break out
How far will you get alone?

Three Years, Six Months

It’s been that long since I saw you
Long red hair weaving sweet tales
A perfect symmetry between eyes and lips
Long ago we were in Vermont
Celebrating the new year in a new place
Welcoming the future with open arms
Sleeping together at a holiday inn
Stop at Lake George to take in amazement
Then a riot broke out
Our stars collapsed under the weight of life and death
Abandoned in the North to chase strange flesh
Wondering how endings always find me

Then three years and six months passed
June 1, the year of our Trump
10 months spent forging forward after fallouts
Too many struggles to count
Looking along the trenches to battle through
A two minute glimpse blips across my screen
You ran away to the concrete jungle
A Viking man calling you his own
Your proclamation of love to the Norse god
More stains strewn across your skin
That perfect symmetry hidden under stylization
A beauty tainted by modern endeavors

When we parted a sea was created
It is far too wide to even consider crossing
Though I still wish other roads were taken
We could have conquered it all
Taken over the fucking world
Slain our enemies and defied expectations
We parted and a future was lost

Her

Maybe I am going crazy
Maybe I am loosing my balance
But I swear I see your face everywhere
When I sit at a bar you ask “can I see your ID?”
When I open the door you smile at me
When I kiss you my heart melts
But…it’s never you
Just shadows taunting the roads I paved
Never knowing if anything can be saved
We know that all are damned from the start
Yet we gleefully laugh in the face of conclusions
As if nothing ever ends
As if your lights were out before love died
As if you ever had a fucking chance
How dare you try to quell the tide of time
Surrounding your thoughts with hope
Acceptance should have resonated
Moving forward should have been protocol

But!
The ultimate rebuttal
But!
You really believe love exists
You really think the sun will shine one day
You REALLY think you have a chance
A pessimist would think it’s cute
A pragmatist would think it’s counterintuitive
An idealist will encourage the hope in your soul
Push forward through all resistance
Take the casualties and learn from mistakes
Fight the war you were drafted into
Dare to make strides towards your vision

It was all conjured by your face
A hope found all over the place

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Should Have Known

Never trust the echoes of the past
They haunt you
Structures discovered under trusting lights
Solutions postulated with a glimmer of hope
The darkness could recede
The night could finally find resolution
My search could have been concluded
Though I forgot the opposition
An army of darkness mocking my attempts
Damning my movement into regression
Blockading as I begged for passage
Denial encompassing my afternoon leisure
Simply dropped after eight hours
I can only hate the slowly prowling power
The ball and chain that ironically holds me back
As my enemy mocks me with the stack
I degraded character to fulfill shortsighted glamour
I declined the everlasting for the faintly heard
If the shadows accept me I should only be so lucky.

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By The Wayside

I have always been left to the wayside.
Wait…left?
Didn’t I put myself there?
All of my slacked views
Pinpointed landscapes
No panorama
Shortsightedness is my tragic flaw
Decisions for short term
I forgot failures last forever
Lose this, lose that
Forget all that could have been
Lost lips and hearts wasted

Tragedy befalls everybody
It’s tough realizing your own
It’s the wallpaper to our phones
Hidden in greetings to strangers
Pray what was wronged can be righted
Seldom is still not never
There is still a chance
A fools hope for a lottery winning.

The wayside belongs to everyone
We all fucked something up
We can’t get over it
Those lost moments of could’ve beens
Dreams of different lives
Flickers of different outcomes

There is a universe where we are together
Everyone wins and loves there
All that should, is
We kiss and angels weep tears of joy
God thanks us for showing him what love is

The way it should be…
But we’re still by the wayside.

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