The Attempts

I just can’t keep up the facade
A convalescent juxtaposition against greatness
All the debts I pretended to pay
The destitute constitution I disregarded
Shallow waters drown me
The depth shortens my breathe
Surrounded by reverberations of salacious samples
Frown while fighting for a handful of steps
Say it with your chest but express it with your tears
Drone the pings bouncing down the surface
Couldn’t have defended the frontline
A barrage of soulless sectors invading the day
Calendar count the times defiance fell to its knees
A slackened defense against a violent offense
Drink the martini forget the slandered sucker punched disgrace
Drown over and over again in the glow of a moon
The only true light shining in the fluorescent glow
Break the glass
Stammer through grass
Calloused kinships to summon
Through the desert I dragged myself
Down the toilet I had to drown
Shrug the trepidation
Stall the static inference
Dire doom stare
Telling tallies

All attempts fell short
Half-hearted desire stifled
Never really believed in anything
So I fell for everything
A modern day messiah.